Moby Dick and others covers by Ethem Onur.
Moby Dick and others covers by Ethem Onur.
Finish reading The Most Awkward Restaurant Conversation You’ll Ever Hear
I kinda love this dress (:
“It’s mostly leg work, this job.”
To be honest, I’m
really not nearly as over you as I like to think I am. Today proved that. I wish that you growing up and apologizing would happen soon, but I know that the wait on that will be long.
I could say I don’t really know what I want from you, but that would be a lie and we’re being honest here. I want you, I want your love, and I want you to care. No one else will do, trust me I’ve tried. It has to be YOU.
I know that you think it’s too much of a sacrifice, but I can promise you it’s really not. If you were willing to compromise you’d see that that’s not what I want from you at all. I like you for you, and that includes all of the sketchy habits.
I just want you to walk up to me one day and say “Jade, I’m sorry and we should talk”. I’d probably pee my pants, but I would do it in a heart beat. When I’m honest with myself I know there isn’t anything I wouldn’t do for you. Regardless of how hurt I am by you, when you
actually talk to me I talk back and I can’t help but find myself smiling which is probably why it hurts that much more.
I know the chances of any of that are slim, especially considering you’ve kinda taken to pretending I’m not alive. Which I guess is probably for the best, but it still hurts like hell.
I just wish I could speed up time, perform an inception on you, or go back in time and try to fix this.
I can’t even develop a proper crush right now because I’m so stuck on you, I used to be the queen of crushes and broken hearts and not I’m just heartbroken.
Please. Fix it. Soon.
Smoking is bad,but the reason why I smoke is worse.
I’m torn. A part of me wants to
hold out hope for something that currently seems impossible, while another part of me wants to go back to being the ice queen and reclaim my title as a heart breaker. Being on the receiving end of heart break is the worst especially when you know it shouldn’t be happening. He has legitimately said that he knows he will regret his decisions and choices, I don’t understand why he’s still making them then. Is getting strange really worth that? You must feel like it is, because you’re sticking with that even though tons of people are trying to help you think with your other head.
I can’t help but wonder if I was different if things would be different. I know that I want your love and respect, not your lust and infatuation….but I can’t help thinking you would have stayed around longer if that was what I offered. I want to wait for you to grow up
and man up, but I don’t know if I’m strong enough to do that.
I CANNOT and WILL NOT be just your friend.
We crossed that friend barrier and continued to hangout on the other side of it, my heart won’t let me pretend that none of that ever happened.
I have to try so hard just to not burst into tears when I see you because it hurts more than I thought it would. The day you drop kicked my behind into the friend zone I cried, I cried all day until I couldn’t cry anymore.
Dealing with you this weekend hurt more than you’ll ever know. I tried to drown my sorrow and hurt in the hopes that I would be so numb that I wouldn’t even know you were there, but you wouldn’t let that happen. I had done so well in avoiding you this week up until Friday. I knew it was a bad omen when I saw you on my way to the pool and again before I went to dinner. I knew since we were going to your friends house that is was highly likely that you would be there, but I had an ounce of
false hope that you would be out doing someone else instead. I couldn’t even look at your face, I haven’t in weeks if I’m being 100% honest. I know that you have to be able to see the hurt and sadness is my face when you’re around so I don’t understand why you felt the need to try and talk to me. When the girl who has had my back throughout this whole thing stepped between us so I could hide behind her, why didn’t you stop? I know you saw my face drop when you started talking about chicks, but no, it didn’t stop there. She had to take you outside and tell you to leave me alone. But of course when she left, you came right back to push me. I really wanted to scream at you and say "Leave me alone and never talk to me ever again, it hurts to just be around you so please just stop. Stop trying, and forget anything ever happened." But I couldn’t bring myself to do it, because if I opened my mouth you would’ve known I was crying. I’m hoping and praying that you’ll wake up one day SOON and you’ll be "ready" to stop being a man whore and be with me. I just hope that if that day comes, I’m still waiting in limbo for you and I haven’t already moved on or gone back to when I first met you.
I’m still at a loss for words to describe how I feel, but when I’m finally able to put words to this I know it’ll be fan-freaking-tastic.
Sometimes Finn and Jake display the most healthy and positive friendship I’ve ever seen and sometimes it makes me really happy that they don’t pull tropey bullshit and they have lines like this that show just how much they get each other.